Like this past week. Take a look at this picture. We've talked about this in a blog earlier in the month. Does anything look different?
A week ago did you hear someone shout
"I DEED EAT!!!"
Kidlet Three gave himself his first insulin shot! Four years after his diagnosis he had the courage, strength, and lots of incentives to poke that needle in his own skin. And he has continued on all this week having to face another giant when he had to go into a restaurant bathroom to give himself the shot. But guess what...
He DID IT!!
The smile on his face spread from ear to ear after that first shot. The first words out of his mouth were "I did it" and then "that wasn't so bad." I cried happy tears. We did a dance. We called family and friends. And boy did we hug.
The gameboard that Kidlet One made was pivotal for Kidlet Three to get moving toward this goal. Each day Kidlet Three had an option to earn a dollar per the gameboard spaces instructions, or to give us a dollar back if he chose to skip a space (set of instructions). Never did he pay us any money. He charged along that gameboard in his true competitve way. The day we were to share poking the needle in he was a little apprehensive. So we literally talked through what was going to happen and then we prayed. Well, I prayed as he was jittery. Specifically I asked God to give Kidlet Three extreme courage and peace. And then we started and I took my hand off the syringe in a surprise move but he continued on and poked that needle in his tummy chub. And the party started!
Kidlet Three's journey to this day is not unlike this inflatable obstacle course. As I crawled through here, God did a little nudge with me and allowed me to see the analogy.
What started out as a standing/walking through the beginning of the maze quickly ended with me crawling on my hands and knees. Quite humbling, I must say. Rounding a corner I saw this:
Until I stood up and saw a different perspective
The view was a whole lot different when standing. Four years Kidlet Three has been staring at this view. The thought of giving himself his shots was too ovewhelming. Like he couldn't get through. And he would sit down and not face the obstacles and allow Husband and I to give the shot. Today, I stood and plowed my way through those obtacles and boy did that feel good.
That one last obstacle was the steepest. With very little grips and a steep incline. Already a little out of breath, I stood looking at this ladder of sorts wondering how I had talked myself into this!
Kidlet Three started on his gameboard knowing full well the winning space of the game was the day he would do the poke. Yet he was willing to play the game. He moved ahead a space each day collecting his $1 and small incentive prizes selectively placed along the board. Never did he talk about giving up and not playing. Even when he faced the last big step. Like me trying to climb this tiny ladder (secretly hoping the kids were not around to watch me struggle at this). I huffed and puffed my way up these steps (this wasn't the steepest inflatable by the way...I had already done that one but that didn't make this any easier)! What a sense of accomplishment when I got to the top.
I sat down on the slide with my newly pedicured toes (too bad you have to wear socks here)! This was the final step to conquoring the obstacle course. This was the poke-the-needle-in-yourself step to win. It was so fun to slide down and catch my breath! And guess what I said at the bottom?
I deed eat!
Kidlet Three, we are so proud of you! You beat that obstacle course of fear and apprehension. When things looked overwhelming and hopeless, you didn't quit. You pushed through. Courage was with you. His name is Jesus. He is proud of you too. In fact, I bet God and Jim were shouting from heaven last week as we were celebrating here on earth. They were shouting as loud as they could in happiness and joy...
He did it!